
This might have to be a 6/5 rating. Emily Austin might be my new favorite author. The way her protagonist, Gilda, expresses herself, the stream-of-consciouness rambling of the writing, dealing with mental health and death - it all resonated with me. I felt a mental connection to Gilda that was on another level. I was emotionally impacted by this book, tearing up on a bus (strangely similar to Gilda herself). I really loved this book. The mystery element of it was surface level and, while interesting, took a backseat to the full exploration of life and existence itself.
I had to note a few quotes:
- She told me, "You have a classic case of impostor syndrome." I told her that I'm not sure that's a real syndrome. I said, "I wonder if everyone's an impostor. What if, beneath every lawyer's suit and every stay-at-home parent's apron, everybody's just a baby who doesn't know what they're doing? I wonder if anyone really identifies as the adult they're morphed into."
- "I wish that I find something distracting enough to occupy my mind with thoughts unrelated to the futility of my existence or that I die in the least disruptive way possible for my family."
6/5 (Is this allowed?)